Fear of Flying...Solo

In my last post I mentioned my up-coming solo show. I am extremely proud and excited about: "Art Quilts and Textiles by Susan Nash". It will run from April 24, 2010 to June 19, 2010 at the Zanesville Museum of Art. ( http://www.zanesvilleart.org/ ) The opening reception and gallery talk, should you happen to be in the area, is Saturday April 24, 5 -7pm.

I am grateful for this opportunity on so many levels. A solo show was on my list of things to achieve in the future. The fact that the museum director, Susan Talbot-Stanaway, saw something in my work worthy of a show, humbles me deeply. The publicity has been amazing as well.

May I let you in on a wee little secret? There is a huge part of all this that terrifies me. I mean, I am preparing to hang my heart and soul out there for of the world to see, and judge. That ugly little "ego" dude is on my shoulder asking me, am I really worthy of this?? Who do I think I am?? Okay, so I'm thinking this is probably a normal reaction? Or am I alone in feeling a little bit inadequate?

What Am I Afraid Of?

While on my morning walk this morning I saw so many things that I wanted to "capture", but of course I didn't have my sketchbook/journal OR my camera....both of which I keep telling myself to never leave home without! GRRRR. So what is up with that?? How many times have I told myself "draw something everyday" or "take the camera with you everywhere". It really is not that hard to do...so why don't I? What am I afraid of??
Maybe it is the old ego thing of being worried that I'm not good enough...or maybe I am just lazy.
At any rate, (and here I go again), I will renew my commitment to myself to have those items with me all the time. There...it is now in print for the entire Universe to witness.